God, Happiness and Life

Part of our Christmas living room. Angels, candles, family pictures and snow globes, arranged differently every year. Our small Christmas dining area. Dining table, not in the photo. My niece and the gift she got from my daughter. Wow! What a smile. Our Christmas tree in Manhattan.

Special people that makes our Christmas celebration this year even better. What a lovely day. And there were very thoughtful gifts too. Thank you for the blessing of having you in our life.

More than the gift, it is always the message that counts. From my partner of more than 27 years came this message: Dearest Mahal, Financially, we are on the threshhold of doing better, even better tha our highest point. Emotionally, psychologically, and physically, we are better than ever before. We have survived and have proven our love is strong and resilient. I love you very much. Yor own, 'G'

The San Mateo gang is an ever loyal bunch of people in our partnership. Whether we are financially okey or in a money pit, they are always there to support, if not in real financial terms, but through words of encouragement and the essence hope. My Mama, my brothers, nephews and nieces, and also my SIL, they will be around to stand by me, in good times and most so during bad. What a blessing! And so on this hopeful ocassion allow me to wish everyone a very Merry Christmas. Love, Peace and Goodwill to all Mankind!!! Cheers.

It is Jordan's birthday. This year might not be as noisy for him, as the previous years because of financial concerns. Nevertheless, it remains as one of the four most important days in my life. He may have perceived things about me that hurt and made him sad, but that neither 'words' and 'actions' from my end were meant to cause pain. This year was a struggle for this son of mine, personally and and also his work. His path seems unclear. But I could be wrong. There were so many times in the past that I was, only to find myself regretting I did not trust him fully well. And so, this message is aimed at assuring my son that I will try to be a better Mom to you by not "questioning your every move or action". I will put my faith in the thought that as an adult you know very well what is good for you and your future. Happy Birthday Jigs! I LOVE You! Cheers! Get those beer bottles chilled :-)

It is my son's 26th birthday today. He is my youngest and somehow proven to be the mischievous one. I was talking to him last night and happy to know that he did will during his training. He says that if he really makes the grade in this company, there's a chance he might have the opportunity to do further training in Canada. He likes the product, but it's gonna be tough, by his own admission. I loved that enthusiasm. He said a learned a few things when he was out of work - money, disbelief that he didn't make it at stellar, how the mistakes were not even smart mistakes during the finals, how bad he felt disappointing his two favorite trainors, etc. Thus, the self-imposed isolation. That's all in the past now. As always, the learning is the better part of that experience. I just told him that perhaps, it was not meant to be and that he was destined for something greater. No one is perfect. Certainly, not this youngest of my brood. But I love him. We all love and ...

Today is a special day for Myles and Nigel. For the both of them, it is the end of 'me' and in its place, the beginning of 'us'. More than that, it is the start of a new life filled with love, honesty and fidelity. Nigel is my partner's son. Truly, a hunk of a man, with good looks and a lot of matter between the ears, I know he will make not only a responsible but a fine husband and father as well. Myles, is a pretty girl who blossomed as a woman when she met Nigel. We were briefly a witness to that. She worked abroad for three years (and still will be) and her marriage to Nigel today is a culmination of that blossoming process. We have all come to love and care for Myles very much. Not only because she is smart, intelligent, but most of all because she is caring and very thoughtful. I am a hundred percent sure she'd make a good wife and mother. With distance and all, I guess when Myles leave to continue her work abroad, both their continued nurturing for each...

There now exist a renewed feeling of togetherness resolved by some physical and systemic change. from this fact, I realized more than ever that relationships naturally come with highs and lows. It is naive to expect otherwise. And love will always make things right. Cheers!

Humans are social beings. We certainly need to know our lineage, and our origins. After all, as people we need to belong, to a nation, a community and most definitely, a family history. Needless, to say where without, we are isolated like an inhabited island. Useless, barren and bearing no future. One way of classifying one's lineage is through surnames and coat of arms . From Wikipedia, 'surnames are names added to a given name and is part of a personal name. In many cases a surname is a family name; the family-name meaning first appeared in 1375. Many dictionaries define "surname" as a synonym of "family name". It is also known as a "last name" In some cultures, the surname may be a patronymic or matronymic. In some cultures, the surname comes first, followed by the given name(s) ; this is the case in Hungary, as well as China and other countries in the Far East. Japanese names are always in this order, although the Japanese commonly will revers...

My journal or of memories, usually keep me up when I am down and keep me more upbeat when I am happy. And on being Happy: "People take different roads seeking fulfillment and happiness. Just because they're not on your road doesn't mean they've gotten lost." - H. Jackson Browne "We tend to forget that happiness doesn't come as a result of getting something we don't have, but rather of recognizing and appreciating what we do have." - Frederick Keonig "There are as many nights as days, and the one is just as long as the other in the year's course. Even a happy life cannot be without a measure of darkness, and the word 'happy' would lose its meaning if it were not balanced by sadness." = Carl Jung "For everything there is a season, And a time for every matter under heaven: A time to be born, and a time to die; A time to plant, and a time to pluck up what is planted; A time to kill, and a time to heal; A time to break do...

You Are 52% Happy You're definitely a happy person, even though you have your down moments. You tend to get the most out of life, though there's always some more happiness to be squeezed. How Happy Are You?

A wonderful belated birthday gift to me is gaining back a very pleasurable indulgence which I thought I lost. I was very sure it was going to be something permanent. But again, I am wrong. Thank the heavens above, it is definitely back. I could not really provide the details :-) Suffice it to say, that the life in me is back. It happened this morning. And I loved it.